Wednesday, November 10, 2010

ME?

OK- so god has really been working in me! I am in awe of how faithful He is. how He takes time to speak gently to me and teaches me some tough lessons. like this mornings devotional, wow! umm i learned, on a deeper level, how its not about me... not a little bit. Yes God made me and loves me and wants the best for me, but the best He has for me in this life is to glorify HIM- not myself.
" You were made for God, not vice versa, and life is about letting God use you for His purposes, not your using Him for your own purpose."
- The Purpose Driven Life
So many times i would get upset with my life, what is my purpose? Does God even notice how pitiful my life is? Why am I single? Why do people tease me? Why? Why? Why? me, Me, ME!
I am noticing that the reason I get upset and hurt is because things are not going MY way. I say with my mouth I want God's will for my life, but when it comes down to action i expect it to go MY way and for God's will to be my will. I am learning that submission is a lot harder then we religious people say it is. We sing it all the time, pray it all the time, hear it in sermons, it comes out of our mouths so easily "Lord Your will be done, I surrender all", but when it comes time to live it... its not so easy. We speak one way- act another.
"Focusing on ourselves will never reveal our life's purpose"-
- The Purpose Driven Life
I need to focus on God and realize I was created and held together for one reason- For the glory of God- not that I may boast in myself or what I have done or accomplished, but what GOD has done and accomplished in me.
"For if Abraham was justified by works, he has something to boast about, but not before God."-Romans 4 :2

I may do all the right things and say all the right things, live the way I feel is best for me and I may boast and others may boast in what i have done too, but compared to God, I have nothing. I cannot boast before a perfect God, because even my "perfect" works show up small and meaningless compared to God.
NOTHING is about me- or about my ways, BUT it is all, 100% about God and His glory!
"I must learn that the purpose of my life belongs to God, not me" - My Utmost for His Highest

"It's not about me, as if You should do things my way, You alone are God and I surrender to Your ways."


2 comments:

  1. You're not alone in this. All too often I find myself beginning my prayers with God do this for me or that for me. And thats not how its supposed to be. Or saying why isn't this happening...or why do they get it but I don't.

    There was another song we sang at IV and its called "Forever Reign" by Hillsong. Some of the lyrics are:
    The riches of Your love
    Will always be enough

    But I have to change these words to: LET THEM ALWAYS BE ENOUGH
    Because all too often I find myself not letting God be enough and asking for more more more...give me,, give me give me.

    "You are good, You are good
    When there's nothing good in me
    You are love, You are love
    On display for all to see
    You are light, You are light
    When the darkness closes in
    You are hope, You are hope
    You have covered all my sin

    You are peace, You are peace
    When my fear is crippling
    You are true, You are true
    Even in my wandering
    You are joy, You are joy
    You're the reason that I sing
    You are life, You are life,
    In You death has lost it's sting

    Oh, I’m running to Your arms,
    I’m running to Your arms
    The riches of Your love
    Will always be enough
    Nothing compares to Your embrace
    Light of the world forever reign"

    Isn't it awesome how God is all these things all the time even when we are terrible at living how we should?

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  2. love that song by hillsongs!!! this is great, amy!! have you heard of the "dreaming with God" series by Bill Johnson??? you should check it out. he touches on this a lot. love you!

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